One Name

Vayigash

וְאֵלֶּה שְׁמוֹת בְּנֵי-יִשְׂרָאֵל הַבָּאִים
And these are the names of the children of Israel who came ... Bereshit 46:8

The total gematria for this Hebrew phrase is 1449. It has a digit sum of 18, the value of the Hebrew word חי (chai, life). Consequently, all of the names embraced by this phrase combined are equal to one name, namely, the shem chai. The digit sum of chai further reduces to the digit sum 9, the value of Hebrew letter tet (ט) corresponding to tov (טוב). The shem chai is also the shem tov.

Two nights ago, I dreamt.

All I remember of the dream is that I was pregnant and hiding from a murderer who murdered. It was night time. I ended up hiding in a room that was locked but well-lit when I was in it. It was also in a business. I gave birth to a daughter in that room.

Waking up with the clear feeling that I should name her, as I lay in bed that morning, I mulled over a some names and decided to name her נר-אתתא (Ner-Itta). Ner-Itta has a total gematria of 1052. The digit sum of 1052 is 8, the value of the Hebrew letter chet (ח) corresponding to chai.

Taken together, the shem chai and the shem tov are reverse visions of one name, and the name Ner-Itta is one name.

Bakol & Transmitting The Torah Of Atzilut

Chayyei Sarah

וְאַבְרָהָם זָקֵן, בָּא בַּיָּמִים; וַיהוָה בֵּרַךְ אֶת-אַבְרָהָם, בַּכֹּל
And Abraham was old, well stricken in age; and the Divine had blessed Abraham in all things (bakol, בַּכֹּל). Bereshit 24:1

The Talmud (Bava Batra 16) tells us "in all things" actually refers to the blessing of Avraham with a daughter named Bakol.

What happened to Bakol, the blessed daughter of Avraham?

Here she is in Shemot.

וַיֹּאמֶר, הִנֵּה אָנֹכִי כֹּרֵת בְּרִית, נֶגֶד כָּל-עַמְּךָ אֶעֱשֶׂה נִפְלָאֹת, אֲשֶׁר לֹא-נִבְרְאוּ בְכָל-הָאָרֶץ וּבְכָל-הַגּוֹיִם; וְרָאָה כָל-הָעָם אֲשֶׁר-אַתָּה בְקִרְבּוֹ אֶת-מַעֲשֵׂה יְהוָה, כִּי-נוֹרָא הוּא, אֲשֶׁר אֲנִי, עֹשֶׂה עִמָּךְ.

And He said: 'Behold, I make a covenant; before all thy people I will do marvels, such as have not been created (לֹא-נִבְרְאוּ) in all the earth (בְכָל-הָאָרֶץ), nor in any nation; and all the people among which thou art shall see the work of the Divine that I am about to do with thee, that it is tremendous. Shemot 34:10

The covenant-marvels (blessing) of Bakol (kol through chochmah) do not originate in Beriyah (mikol), rather they are emanated from the Keter-Malchut (הָאָרֶץ) of Atzilut and are All Present (כל זִמֵּן) at matan Torah, designated for transmitting the Torah of Atzilut.

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When Colors Come Alive

Noah

אֵלֶּה, תּוֹלְדֹת נֹחַ--נֹחַ אִישׁ צַדִּיק תָּמִים הָיָה, בְּדֹרֹתָיו: אֶת-הָאֱלֹהִים, הִתְהַלֶּךְ-נֹחַ
These are the generations of Noah. Noah was in his generations a man righteous and whole-hearted; Noah walked with God. Bereshit 6:9

As explained at Ask Noah on the message of the rainbow in parashah Noah:

Rashi, quoting the words "for everlasting generations," notes that the word for generations in Hebrew -- "doros" -- is written without the letter "vav." He writes: "[The word doros] is written defectively (i.e., without the letter vav), because there are generations which do not require a sign ...

This parashah follows the parashah where Chavah (Eve) receives her name. Chavah means "protected" and "sheltered". From this, we could suggest that Chavah was a "sheltered woman", protected from the harsh tests of life.

Originally, Chavah's name was meant to be Chayah (meaning "alive", "living", "giving life"). But the letter yud of Chayah's name was not yet made so her name was formed with the letter vav instead. This is the vav "missing" in Noah's "generations".

The flood came, and then "colors came alive" in the sky as a rainbow of promise that one day, some day, the colors would "come alive" in Chayah's name and in Noah's heart and mind (as opposed to merely in the sky).

Related, the paraphrased title and lyrics of Say My Name by Within Temptation (hear the beautiful song at Across The Borders Of Time):

Know My Name by Beyond Temptation

I tell you my names
So you will know I'm back, I'm here again
For a while
Oh let us share
The memories that only we can share
Together

I tell you about
The days before I was born
How we were as One

I touch your hand with my vision
These colors come alive
In my heart and in my mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving all behind to be with you again

We breath the air
Do you remember how I used to touch your soul?
I'm aware
My hands keep writing
I know that you are here

We soar and fall
Now we are raised
To where we belong

I touch your hand with my vision
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
You cross the borders of time
Leaving all behind to be with me again

Know my name
Remember who I am
You will find me in the world of today
Drift with me again
You are near to where I am
When you don't have to ask me who I am

Know my name
These colors come alive
In our heart and in our mind
We cross the borders of time
Leaving all behind to be together again

Know my name
Please don't ask me who I am

Introduction / Yachid Encounter Shaddai

After over a year of sporadic menses and months of hot flashes, I have now gone more than 5 moons without menstrating at all. Nearing my 48th year, I am well into menopause at this point I do believe. With it, I am entering into the Crone-Dark Moon phase of my biologic lifecycle. What indeed shall be the Essence of Wisdom to come? I'm giddy with anticipation!

Over a 53-day period of time, beginning with the Harvest Full Moon (September 15) of Belz-Elul and culminating on astrological Samhain (November 6), I will initiate myself into Cronehood. Fifty-three is the gematria of Garden (גן), The Jubilee (היובל) and "from the Malchut of Echad" (מאחד).

The new Crone Name I've chosen for myself is משי (Moshee), a form of Moshe (משה, Moses). Typically a masculine name, I've nevertheless chosen the name Moshee for two reasons.

First, Sidhe (of the Celtic mysteries) is pronounced "shee". The prefix letter mem ('m') of mo-shee, can mean "from" and "of". The Torah Nistar shared in the writings to follow here have come "of" my encounter with the Sidhe.

Phonetically transliterated, the Hebrew letters corresponding to the sound of Sidhe (שי) mean gift.

The Hebrew consonants which comprise the word Sidhe (שידה) refer to the energy field of the Divine Name Shaddai (שדי), Bestower of Divine Knowledge. This Divine Name is very appropriate for the witch's feminine ritual of drawing down the moon. Sidhe unifies the Divine Name Shaddai (שדי) and the vessel (ה) of the witch within a Singular Name, from the madreigah of Yachid (יחיד). Thus is born from the Divine Essence the creative power to project Divine Knowledge from potentiality into reality.

Second, the Hebrew name Moshe (Moses) is actually a feminine name. Moshe (pronounced with a short "eh" sound at the end), the greatest prophet of Jewish tradition and he who first received Torah from Sinai, was a man with a feminine name. It is fitting then, that to receive the magical-mystical Torah I am to share, as a woman, I will take a masculine form of the name.

My Crone Name is hereby Moshee. As Moshee, I'm going to write a book, drafting it here on this blog, a magical-mystical commentary on the Torah from the unique perspective of a shamanic Jewitch. The Crone's book of magical Torah commentary I will write is given the title -

Garden Of The Dark Moon Jubilee

It will be Torah commentary unlike any other! It will be pure magic!

I'm going to begin with parashat Vezot Haberakhah.

UPDATE: Beyond Moshee, on my Noble Name Myfanwy